and so it flows.
in the last two weeks, i have “run into” two of my more significant exes, both with their current girlfriends - one at a friend’s party, and one in the subway of all places.
the most recent of the two incidents - the subway run-in - was with my three year ex, whom for a time i thought i’d marry, and have since only wanted to reestablish a friendship with. two years ago (which was three years after the breakup), i tried to reconnect, and received only a cold and dismissive response. at the time i was sorely disappointed that such a significant relationship didn’t seem to carry weight for him anymore, and i bemoaned the true loss of a best friend.
and now, today, two years after that attempt, we accidentally cross paths in the subway. though i saw him out of the corner of my eye and, quite honestly, was ready to keep walking, he called my full name aloud, forcing the encounter.
after ten or 15 minutes of small talk, life changes and recent weather banter, it was time to part ways again - only this time, neither of us really knowing the other, and only one of us caring.
it’s always so strange, unsettling, and sad, to look now at someone who was once your everything, and to realize that you now feel nothing.
